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LP#26: If You're Here

By: Benj Medina III
June 8, 2010: 10:47PM – 11:28PM

I’m lying on my bed
Thinking about you again
As if doing it the whole day isn’t enough
How I wish you’re here beside me tonight

If you’re here I won’t sleep
I’ll just stare at you and hear you breath
Steal a kiss from time to time
And I swear I’ll be up till the sun rise up

Let me be the first person you’ll see
The first person you’ll hear
The first person you’ll feel
After you wake up from a long night sleep

As if the whole night isn’t enough
How I wish I could stop the time
So we won’t need to get up
And just lie here all day long

You don’t have to speak
You can just continue to sleep
As I hug you tight
I swear I won’t let go from day to night

Every night this is what I pray for
Every shooting star this is what I wish for
Countless wishes and prayers over time
One of these could make you mine

I continue to believe that this can happen
Not because of my wishes and prayers
But because we can make this happen
For we are the answer to these wishes and prayers

SP#1: Trust Me Girl

First song I have ever written and got to sing as well. I know I don't sound good but wth I just gave it a shot. Let me know what you think aryt? =)
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Trust Me Girl

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Mar 21, 2010: 11:48PM

Never believed there is
Someone that is better
She was the best
And she seemed almost perfect

All of it changed
When I got to look at your page
Can’t believe you’re prettier than the best
You made me think about choosing you over her

I want to know more of you
Your beauty is too good to be true
That pretty face is
The one I want to see every day
I think it’s worth a try
Haven’t felt like this in a while
Can you trust me girl?
Just hold my hand
And I’ll never let you go

RTP#49: Political View

Politics is the last thing I would get involved to it’s not that I don’t care about my country or I don’t want to help people or I don’t want to make a change for my country. In fact to make a remarkable positive change is one of my missions in my life but for me there are other ways to do it, not just politics. For me politics sucks because it destroys the peace in a person’s life in exchange for power alone. Similarly, when a person gets into showbiz where in you get fans, haters and people eye every move you make. The common ground here is getting famous wherein it could be a blessing and a curse.

Election’s coming, am I voting? NO! I’m not even registered because I didn’t really want to.

Why?

1.) I don’t think my vote would matter anyway, it’s not like my vote is 1:1,000,000 and not the real 1:1. That’s my answer to the people who says “sayang yang boto mo”, I mean the only time I’d feel a little guilt is that if the person I’m going to vote lost because of a single vote or needs my vote to force a tiebreaker.

2.) If I’m still going to vote for the person who I’m sure is going to win with a landslide then I would just waste my time doing it. That would be an answer to those who says “para maexercise mo yung right mo to vote”. Again in this particular scenario my vote isn’t a factor.

3.) A similar scenario as #2, let’s say I voted and the one I chose lost but I believe if that candidate won he/she could really run things well and make this country a better place to live. Now is the person who won against the one I voted really is going to do better? The answer is maybe, we’ll see or the least is hope so.

4.) Take a look at our previous presidents one of them got impeached and the current one’s almost got but lucky for her the people chose to let her finish her term instead. My point is that voters vote for someone and then years later they want to replace them with a new one already because the current leader doesn’t run things well. Is it the voters or the candidates?

For me a better way to determine a leader is clearly not through voting but more of proving. There are also candidates and these candidates will have to go to a series of tests. Not only written exams but also practical exams wherein they would be given real situations and then they would have to find an answer then execute it [basically there would have to be an actual result] then they would be graded for it as well.

Then whoever gets the highest grade of all becomes the president then the second highest scorer becomes the vice president and so on. Assuming that there’d be a law that there’d be 12 candidates wherein as mentioned there’ll be a president and the vice president and then 10 senators. Who chooses the candidates? Who would give grades to the candidates? The current president is the answer for both questions for he/she knows what it takes to get there. What about the lower positions it will be appointed by the higher ones [a senator picks a congressman, a congressman picks a governor and so on]. The appointed officials can be expelled anytime especially when they break laws or whatsoever. Biases can be present but I think this system could be better than campaigning for the voters’ vote. Where a lot of promises would be made and a lot would be broken. And sometimes it could be decided simply by money and popularity.

Another thing, these candidates only state the things that they would do if they would win. Ever wondered what if they don’t? That’s the best question that you can ask them. What are you going to do if you’re not going to win? Think of it it’s not only that if you’re in the position where you can make a difference. For me even though you’re not elected you can still do things to make this country better. I think the best candidate is the one who has plans and is willing to implement it even though he lost.

RTP#48: Once is Enough

Mar. 25, 2010: 1:33AM

“The good thing when you experience failures is that you have experienced it; learn from your mistakes and thou shall be better the next day.” – BM3RD

In my life I have experienced quite a number of failures from school, relationships and life in general. But having this thought in mind I don’t let these failures to bring me down but I take a minute to check out what went wrong and I would learn from it and turn the tables around to avoid it the next time the situation would happen. I mean whenever I fail a subject I always have a reason and I see to it that it wouldn’t be dejavu when the next time I’ll be taking the subject. Say I failed again for the second time but I’m sure that it did not happen because of the same reason. Well I experienced that I failed one math class twice, I failed during the first time around because it was so hard and I wasn’t able to understand anything but during the second time I took it I think my professor only guessed our scores for there are classmates of mine who got lower scores than me but still passed and I failed. So with that at hand I turned this frustration to a motivation and the following term I was exempted for the finals (that’s how high my quizzes are). Did you get my point already?

Here’s another example to let you see at a better angle. You fell down because manhole and the next day would you let it happen again? Falling down because of an unexpected manhole once is tolerable but twice? I don’t think so.

Point here is if you’re experiencing such failure because of the same reason over and over and over and over (raised to the infinity) and over again then something is wrong with you. If you can’t see what’s wrong with you then ask your peers for it I bet they have already noticed it and if they haven’t then tell me your story then I’ll make you realize about it =).

Stop and think about things that are going on and let go of the things that you have to let go so that you can have a better life. Because sometimes we only need someone to enlighten us on what’s real to stop living in a dream.

EP#52: Vacation Plans

Mar. 24, 2010: 6:48PM

School’s over! What’s next? At this point I’m still wondering what is and even though I had come up with plans to do for this long vacation, I’m not really sure if I can pursue it. I don’t want for this vacation to be all rest and I want to learn a thing or two that’s why I planned of (1): learning how to drive & (2): learning how to play the guitar. Why I’m not sure if I can do those two things this summer vacation?

For the first one it’s because I don’t have any savings for this quarter for the very simple reason that is I wasn’t given my allowance consistently. I mean I am supposed to have 1,500 per week so that would mean if there’s 11 weeks for school I should get a total of 16,500. But because I’m staying here in Pasig and was only able to come back to Cavite for only 3 times over the quarter; I was not able to get my allowance regularly. What happened is my savings became my allowance for the following week. Why don’t I ask for my whole allowance? I’m not just the type of person who does such thing the one who would ask for something if I don’t really need it. Well yeah if you’ll take a look at it I have the right to demand for a complete allowance but for if I still have some money left with me then I would still ignore asking for it. Therefore the reason is that I don’t have the money to get myself enrolled in a driving school.

Moving on to the next one, well it’s just a minor thing for me but the reason would be is that I don’t have a guitar, an acoustic one to be specific because my sis (who’s going to teach me) has an electric one but she said we’d be splitting for an acoustic one which is fair enough. I can see this being resolved sooner or later.

Well I can still enjoy my vacation even without these so I’ll just see how things would go for me. Later! :)

RTP#47: Unhook the Hook

Mar. 23, 2010: 11:42

What made me realize about this was an episode from my favorite show HIMYM. Season 5 episode 16 wasn’t that funny for me but the story is what struck me. It is all about getting hooked by someone or you hooking someone. Hook here means getting someone so in to you that they would do everything for you and it happens without you even noticing it.

But…

I was able to notice that I am biting in to someone’s hook but she has the perfect bait for me to bite on. She got me thinking about her all day long, listening to her songs for an hour or so and staring at her pictures every night. Well I’m not saying I am regretting getting hooked by her I’m not even sure if she knows she did. Actually, I always loved it from the little talks we had daily shared laughs, failures and inspiring thoughts to each other. Even though she seemed like the perfect girl for me, I have to pass on making my move on her [for now? (?_?)]. Maybe it’s because I was not able to get her hooked. But I think she’s happy on what’s going on with her life now; I’m happy for her as well and I’m still going to be here for her.

So…

I would let go off this hook and search not for another hook but someone who I can hook while she got me hooked as well. Actually, I was able to find one already and even though it’s hard to let go of the last one, I would still do it for her. [As always] I really think if she’d give this a chance it could work for both of us.

And…

Because of this realization and a little action I’m now off the hook and you know what I feel really good about it. It’s not that I don’t want her in fact I really do but after testing the waters again I must say there’s too much this world can offer and if we really only if we REALLY can’t get what we REALLY want then don’t hesitate to go for another one. Maybe it’s just not meant to be and not yet meant to be but simply not meant to be.

And…

Another thing that I realized is that there’s a lot of interesting things out there that I failed to see when I was hooked and now as if I’m cramming for a project that I am blogging about these things that I missed to take note of.

EP#51: Hot Coffee Suits the Hot Topic

Mar 23, 2010: 10:20AM

Yesterday, Alah and I had a coffee in Starbucks and talked about things. It was a pretty serious conversation wherein I was able to talk to him about the only problem that I am in now and he was able to give his pov on it. There’s some points that I really agreed on and there’s some that I disagreed for we view things quite differently.

What I realized is that I am the only one who can start fixing this problem of mine even though it’s a group who is involved here. My plan is to talk to them one at a time and let them realize about what’s happening not just today but the whole situation as is. Through this approach I hope that they’d take it seriously for this could open their minds and ignite them to become the better man at their own rights. And also maybe after I had this kind of talk with them they would respect me more in the sense that I’m not all jokes that they usually see but I’m also serious when it comes to life and I care about what’s going on around me.

Though we all know how much a coffee from Starbucks costs I think it’s all worth it and even though I have to disagree on some things the entire conversation is meaningful. And I said to Alah the good thing that I realized from on being in this kind of situation is that I’m on the right track not only in school but in life in general. And also I said to him that maybe this is the reason why God wouldn’t allow me to have girlfriend yet. Maybe He wants me to fix these things first before getting involved in another commitment. That’s cool, no need to rush things for I know after going through this I would definitely be a better man and I would be in a better shape when I’m going to deal with my next relationship. Where I can influence her more to become a better person and make her understand things that she failed to understand before.

Funny because when I get together with my aunts the first thing that they always ask me is that if I do have a girlfriend already. And I always laugh at it then answer it with none. But deep inside I’m thinking wait for it I’m sure everyone’s going to love her. Fyi I haven’t introduced any of my exes to my family yet so the next might be the first and I’m sure I’m going to love her like she’s the last girl on earth.

Later. =)

RTP#46: Realationship

MAR 21, 2010: 12:47AM

I want to talk about my plan for my next relationship. I never had a serious relationship or “realationship” as I’ll call it and that’s what I want to have the next time around. No more flings, I had enough and never got anything from it but do I regret it? No, because I would not be enlightened and be the person that I am now without experiencing those failures. And fyi there are two things that I never did on those relationships and they are:

1.) Courted the girl: I don’t know maybe they’re just easy or I really am good in making a girl fall in love even without doing some act only through my words. But I bet it’s the first one.
2.) Played with the girl: even though all of them were short lived never and I mean NEVER played with her and I would never ever play with a girl. To manipulate her and make her do the things I want her just to give me what I want. It’s not going to happen EVER!

I want to have a serious realationship with a girl that is worth sharing a realationship with. Yes, I am very choosy when it comes to girls and I would be even more because I want a girl that I can proudly introduce to my family. I want a girl that wouldn’t get me looking at other girls for I’m so happy to be with her to the point that I would not give a damn to look at other girls without her asking me for it. A girl that wouldn’t make me wish that I’m with another girl. And that girl should not give a second to doubt about me not taking her seriously because I am sure and there’s no way I would not take her seriously.

I know I’m not that good looking but I also know that I would always be there for her, listen to whatever she says, understand her all the time and love her more than she’ll ever do and grow with her and become better persons because of each other.

All that I’m asking for is to trust me and give me a chance. I would be treating that girl with respect and would make her feel special in my own little ways and would look at her not as a girl that I’d be with for the moment but as a girl that I’d be with forever.

RTP#45: The Last Hour I'm 18

Late post: created Feb. 19, 2010

Tonight is the night before my birthday. In an hour I'm going to be a year older. For me age is only a number, it's how we act which determines our real age. Just today I was told by my classmate that he really thought that I was a freshman until today when he saw my school ID. It often happens that I’m being judged as someone lower my age when it comes to physical aspect. But for me it’s the total opposite when it comes into what’s inside me. How I view things, handle situations and want to live life is far beyond my age.

Also tonight one of the most unexpected things happened and that is Jace texted me first while I’m still trying to figure out what would I talk to her about. She sent a very awesome realization which is this:

“Everyday something or someone disappoints us. Lives the way we don’t agree with, laughs at things we hate and loves the ones we fool ourselves to be indifferent to. But we also forget that every day, something makes us wee bit happy, and someone blesses us with their love. Why get sick of the world when you can change it?”

Amen to that statement and like I said to her, everyone should view things this way. Take a look at the last sentence, that’s basically one of the reasons for my existence here on earth, which is to make a difference. And as I always say: “Sometimes it’s not about making huge steps but it’s about making quick steps [and vice versa].”

I attempted to write a book about women and it was a failure but not really a total failure but it’s just that from the simple idea it got really complex to the point that I’m getting really stressed due to it. Though my thoughts are factual and the content sure is spectacular, but it lacks support. So before I’d start writing again I’m going to research on it first [that includes experiencing the necessary things to prove a point].

So Benj what’s this book about? Glad you asked. As I’ve said it’s about women and it’s all about women. It’s like a manual for the guys to know about everything about women before being involved in a serious relationship. From the types of women out there [major types, stereo types, sub types], to the common attitudes of women, how to treat them, tips on how to make a move on them and I advise on the different problems people encounter before, and during the relationship. I would share things as long as there’s something that I could think of. [If you’re a girl reading this post then you must be cursing me or something but please read the next paragraph first]

And why did I write this book? I’m getting tired of hearing stories and reading Facebook statuses that contains her boyfriend cheated on her and chose the other girl over after all they’ve been through. My point here is I want to erase the guys cheating on girls. One way to do it is to be sure about which one he’d be dating, knowing her thoroughly, treating her like she’s the one he’s going to marry and spend the rest of his life with. Just imagine a world wherein no one is cheating [in terms of relationships], divorces and annulments would be reduced big time and there would always be a considerable reason for each break up. Basically, I want to protect you [girls] from getting your hearts broken from time and time again.

[I would highly appreciate on hearing your comments regarding this one]

For me that’s one way wherein I could make this world a better place. Of course, there’s a ton of ways to do it and we should just start looking for it and acting on it.

RTP#44: Plans

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I have this passage from the Bible posted on the wall of my bedroom and now I’ll be basing what I want to talk about on this. Well if you’re going to base being religious by attending the mass every week and by praying before and after meals or praying before going to sleep, then I’m not really religious. But I do believe in Him and I’ll always will no matter what happens.

Let me emphasize one word on the first part of the passage which is PLANS. In life we always got to have a choice because it’s not always that we can do two things at the same time. Take this simple example of where are you going to have lunch? If you’re in school you may think of the school canteen, the fast food chains surrounding your school and the eateries as well, here you may spend time thinking about where to eat but in the end you’ll only be choosing one among these places. Let’s say you chose to eat in the school canteen but we all know that things wouldn’t be the same if you chose to eat in the Mc Donald’s near your school? The food you ordered and the people you are with may be the same but the ones around you aren’t, are just simple differences. Did you get my point?

If yes, then good if not let me explain things a bit further. No matter what you choose God already has something in store for you. Though sometimes we experience not so good things because of bad decision making, of course none of us is perfect but keep in mind that everything happens for a reason and not to lose faith in Him. No matter what happens, keep believing in Him and then good things will happen sooner or later. Here’s the summary of what I said:

“It is written that God has PLANS for us but in life we’re the ones who choose which plan He would run for us. Though sometimes we commit mistakes in choosing then bad things might happen. Don’t question Him. Keep believing in Him and things would be better for sure.” – Benj Medina III

RTP#43: The Better Man

The comeback theme for my blog is "The Better Man" and here's why.

The better man would refer to as the wiser man.

- He knows how to live life the better way and handle himself with confidence that he wouldn’t be put down by just any obstacle and is ready to stand up a second after falling down.
- He knows when to stop and think if he’s heading the right path or he should turn around and pursue another path for the current path isn’t taking him anywhere that is good.
- He knows that not all things that he should do must always be good but what he knows is his limitations and not go beyond it if he can’t handle it.
- He lives in a balanced life where he has time for everything and he knows what to prioritize over the other.
- He aspires to be better every day without knowing the best there is he’ll continue to develop until someday he’ll realize he’s already the best there is.
- He would not stop growing for he knows that there’ll always be something new to learn out there.
- He respects not only the people in authority but all the people around him.
- He has the ability to know what the person is feeling without even asking.

I just had this thought because I don’t really know where I’m heading now aside from finishing my studies ASAP. It’s not that I don’t know what I want but recently the things that I plan to do doesn’t really work the way I planned it to. And what sucks now is that it’s been all about school though I’m heading in the right direction school for me was sort of boring because there’s less thrill in my life today. Feels like tomorrow is just another school day and nothing special would occur. And also I’ve been scared to take risks and tend to play things safe most of the time, more on this later.

My main thing here is I not to try to be the better man but to be the better man and for me we all should. As stated it’s not about living a straightedge lifestyle but knowing your bounds and not going beyond it. To live a balanced life and to be the better man that’s my thing right now. Come and join me for sure this is going to be LEGEN… waaait foooor iiiiiiit… DARY! LEGENDARY!

RTP#42: Programming

I’ve done quite a number of programs and I’m very sure that I’m still going to do a lot of programming in the future. And what I like most about programming is that I’m getting my chance to execute my plan. And the hardest part in programming is when you’re only starting to do it because it requires one thing that is said to be God given and something you can pull out inside you for you to develop it is called logic. Another thing is how you analyze and view things because in programming you would have to look closer and to dig deeper in order for you to come up with the solution to the problem. Is programming complicated? Yes, but it would depend on the problem and how are you going to handle it.

Try asking yourself “Why is it like this?” or “What is this for?” or “What if it doesn’t have this?” These questions are the same questions that you’ll be answering when someone asks you about your program. Similarly, questions like “What if I’m going to do this before this?” or “What if I’m going to use this instead of this?” are the ones that you should ask yourself when you’re creating a program.

Now in analyzing you should be efficient because even though you can analyze very well there are times that you’ll overlook some details which are very important. This is the most critical part of when creating a program because the result would depend on this stage. If you’re going to interpret the problem correctly then that’s great but what if you went the other way then most probably the things that you’re going to do next might become just a waste of time. Another key is to just deliver what you’re asked to. Print out the required output the way they wanted to and that’s it.

Formulating the solution is only second to the hardest part when you’re creating a program. In this part I’m talking about coming up with a solution not using programming language yet but still the English language. I recommend you to go through this step so that you’re going to have a concrete picture on how you’re going to put everything together in the end. This part would be like the planning part and it’s always better to have one than not have one.

Then here comes the most frustrating part, the encoding. This part would be like the planning part and it’s always better to have one than not. Basically, this is translating your formulated solution to the programming language you’re using. Sounds easy? But it isn’t because you should know the right functions to use and how are you going to use them. And the most difficult part would be figuring out how to combine these functions so that they’ll complement each other and produce the desired result that you want to have. One good thing about programming is that you can have different solutions to one problem. It’s up to you to choose the best solution.

The shorter the better that’s how you’re going to determine a good program. Of course a shorter program that produces the exact output as the longer one is always better. Not only that it would consume less memory on your computer but it shows that the program is more efficient. For example if you’re asked to determine a vowel from a consonant. There are two ways to deal with this and (1) one is to set a conditional statement for to determine if the input is a vowel and (2) the other is to do the same thing to verify if the input is a consonant. Which one is more efficient? If you chose (1) then you’re right because for that one you’ll only have 5 comparisons unlike in the other way where in you’ll be comparing the input among the 21 letters. Here’s the algorithm for that example:

Input “Enter a letter”; letter$
If (letter$ = “a” or letter$ = “e” or letter$ = “I” or letter$ = “o” or letter$ = “u”) then
Print “The letter is a vowel”
Else
Print “The letter is a consonant”
End if

Now that code isn’t perfect because it should still compare for the uppercase letters and it should determine if the input is indeed a letter and not a number. If you’re going to input a number when you run this program the output would be “The letter is consonant”. Same principle applies to the symbols and punctuation marks. My point here is to make each program as perfect as possible. Find all the loopholes in your program and fix each of them. Bugs or loopholes are inevitable but they can be destroyed. The key is to try all possible inputs that would make the program respond differently.

To conclude this post let me share several things that I do when I’m creating a program.
- I make sure that my mind is focused and I’m in the mood to program. If I don’t feel like programming then I don’t program because forcing myself to do it would only frustrate me in and I wouldn’t be able to accomplish anything in the end.
- I drink Coke or iced tea or sweetened cold black coffee because it makes me think faster.
- I listen to my play list while I’m programming at home but in school I don’t.
- For difficult problems I simulate everything first on a piece of paper.
- I tend to close my eyes to think deeper in order to come up with the solution and to avoid distractions.
- I think about someone that will motivate or inspire me so that I won’t give up if I can’t figure out how things should be done.

RTP#41: Drop by

@ 1:45AM

I just finished studying for my quiz tomorrow for my statistics class. Yes, I really did study even I couldn’t able to believe that I had actually studied only because of a quiz. Most probably I am asleep right now but at some point the coffee gave me an extra push but there’s this little inspiration which really motivated me to study tonight. And the goal here is to get a perfect score for competition’s sake and of course it would also benefit me a lot. I am determined to get a perfect score tomorrow and I wouldn’t even attempt to cheat during the quiz. I’m pretty confident that I’ll be getting a high score on this quiz. Despite my body’s not on its 100% because I am having a slight cold and a bit of a headache to come with it. Well for me being sick wouldn’t matter because I’m awesome. Gtg, need some sleep so that my mind would function awesomely tomorrow. Good luck to me and to her. ;)

EP#50: It's been a while

It’s been a while I won’t discuss what happened during the past weeks but instead I’ll just stick with what happened today. Don’t worry the previous were awesome as usual.

The main thing here is the confrontation that I had with my Mom.
Let me give you a brief description on our situation right now. From this July until now I’ve been living in Pasig during school days. Then just a few weeks after, T-Tel got a job and also lived there eventually. Which means me and T-Tel are in Pasig while T-Tin, Anne and Mom are in Cavite.

Well with the freedom that I was able to get once again the first term became legen.. wait for iiiit.. dary! LEGENDARY! And here comes the second term where in I wasn’t aware that there’s going to be Sunday make-up classes. So I settled for my schedule which is during M-F is from 10:30AM - 4:30PM then from 7:30AM-12:00PM during Saturdays. It’s a pretty good schedule avoiding the rush hour and taking the more subjects than usual. But then here comes the Sunday classes which are scheduled for each day of the week. (For ex: last Sunday it’s our Monday class which is scheduled and tomorrow it will be the day for our Tuesday class) Now it’s so clear that I won’t have any weekend until this term is over. The major concern for me is my health. I wonder if my body can withstand the fatigue the stress and the pressure.

But here’s a bigger dilemma which I was able to see earlier and it’s about the communication within our family. Now everyone has a thing to get busy with and I became really busy and sometimes up to the point where in I am grasping for some rest.

Now let me go to the main thing, after dinner I got irritated when my Mom began to talk about safety precautions and knowing that those kind of talks will last for a while I decided to go upstairs. And to my surprise my Mom called me back before I even set foot on the first step of our stairs. And then she asked me about is there something that she did that made me don’t want to listen to what she’s saying. I am a kind of person where in you’ll need a shovel when you’re talking to. Not to hit me but to dig deeper and get to what I really am thinking or saying. And often when you’re talking to me it seemed like I’m not paying attention and completely not listening to what you’re saying but I really am listening.

(For my own privacy I won’t tell what we talked about.)

At the end of the talk I almost cried. My eyes were so teary and I am feeling so sorry. I realized that it’s the biggest thing that we’re missing. Even me and T-Tel we don’t always get the chance to talk everyday and there are times where in we really wouldn’t see each other even though we’re just under the same roof. Catching up with each other is the hardest thing for my family right now. I have a solution but I can’t implement it because even I can’t assure if I would be able to do it. We just have to stay strong for now and try to burst out this situation.

LP#25: Uninspired

Every second I want to be with you
Being in my dream isn’t enough
Even if it’s the sweetest one
Because I want to always be beside you

Can’t wait to make you smile
Can’t wait to hug you tight
Can’t wait to kiss your lips
That every minute I’d surely miss

You and I forever
And I don’t want another
Can’t wait much longer
For us to be together

Every minute I want to spend it with you
To be alone with you is what I want
Even if it’s just for a day
So that I can always be beside you

Then I will make you smile
I will hug you tight
I will kiss your lips
There’s not a minute I’m going to waste

You and I forever
And I don’t want another
Can’t wait much longer
For us to be together

Every second of the day
I think about you all the time
Wishing that you’d be mine
And hoping that it would last for a lifetime

You and I forever
And I don’t want another
Can’t wait much longer
For us to be together

LP#24: Substitution

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Nov 18 ’09 @ 11:25PM – 11:54PM

It surprises me to see you still with him
After all what he’s been doing
You know there’s someone else he’s seeing
Why can’t you see? (I’m just right here)

I’m one of the better guys for you
And never would I hurt someone like you
Just give me this day
And I’m sure you’re going to make me stay

Because you’re better off with me
Time to change sides (time to change sides)
Make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl let me be part of your life
I know it’s going to break your heart
But I’m always going to be here for you
So make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl I want you to be part of my life

It surprises me to see you even date him
After all what he’s been doing
You know how many girls he all left crying
Why can’t you see? (I’m just right here)

I’m one of the better guys for you
And never would I hurt someone like you
Just give me this day
And I’m sure you’re going to make me stay

Because you’re better off with me
Time to change sides (time to change sides)
Make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl let me be part of your life
I know it’s going to break your heart
But I’m always going to be here for you
So make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl I want you to be part of my life

I know I’m not someone you can trust easily
But I’m sure that I’ll love you more than he ever did
And I’m never going to do the things that he did to you
And there’s no way that I will hurt you girl

Because for me you’re the one and the only one
So make this substitution (Make this substitution)
Make this substitution (Make this substitution)
And I’m sure you’re going to make me stay

Because you’re better off with me
Time to change sides (time to change sides)
Make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl let me be part of your life
I know it’s going to break your heart
But I’m always going to be here for you
So make this substitution (Because I’m the better man)
And girl I want you to be part of the rest of my life

LP#23: Time Out

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Nov 15, 2009 from 11:40PM-12:14AM

One rainy Sunday afternoon
I’m all alone sitting by the window
Waiting for the rain to stop
Then I saw you and you came to me

All of a sudden all my problems were gone
To see you out of the blue
Maybe I’m just lucky because it’s just a coincidence
Maybe it’s about time for me to believe in destiny

Being alone with you seemed unreal
So I pinched myself to make sure it’s real
We looked very comfortable with each other
Sharing some disappointments and some laughter

Less than an inch you’re right here at my left
Walking slowly and looking closely
At that beautiful face of yours
I wish that today is every day

Because I just can’t get enough of you
If I could then I would stop the time
To stare at you for as long as I want
And to kiss you before making the time run again

Looking forward to each day that I’m going to see you
And every day I just want to be with you
Even if it’s just for a short period of time
It’s enough to make and see you smile

Being alone with you was only a dream
So I pinched myself to make sure that this is real
I would really like to stop the time
So that I would be alone with you as long as I want to

PP#9: For Me From You

Written by: Kaye Santos

He knows how weak I am
How stupid I can
And careless I've been
But he loves me as me

Not the mistakes I make
Nor the problems we take
But the trust we gave
And the love we shared

I'm worthless
And sometimes more of a nonsense
But our love is clueless
Until we shared our sweetest kisses

He gave me his heart
As I give him my trust
We promise to love
And never be apart

PP#8: The Other Side of It

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Sept. 17 '09 @ 7:32PM - 8:08PM

In the past I'm the one who's always giving
All of them they just kept on taking
Not expecting something in return
Just wanted them to know how I felt for them

All of them appreciated what I wrote for them
Making them feel special in my own way
This God given talent of mine is not wasted
Every word, every line, every stanza I owe this to Him

He have me this and now I am abusing it
He gave me you and He knows how much I love you
For the first time I received something
You are indeed full of surprises that's what makes you different

We met in a such unexpected place
You caught my eye with your pretty face
Never thought that things would lead us to this
But I am thankful and I love you yes it's true

Trust and understanding two things that I can give
At the start you had troubles trusting me
And sometimes even in understanding me
Of course I can't blame you for that

Things happen when you least expect them to happen
Yes that's what I always say and it became true once again
Very seldom that I am thanking for crashing down but now I am
Because if it didn't happen I would have not met you at all

The poem that you wrote for me it is phenomenal
Now I have experienced the other side of it
Only the blind who cannot read it would not appreciate it
I love every single word of it because I know it came from your heart

Yes I love you for who you are
I will love you more and more each day
Thinking about you every minute every day
I love you and I hope to finally be with you soon

LP#22: Too Fast? So What?

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Sept. 15'09 @ 5:20PM - 6:05PM

Verse 1:

Never experienced something like this before
Never thought I am going to meet someone like you
Thankful that I hit rock bottom
Because if I did not I would not met you

Verse 2:

Never expected for this thing to happen
Never thought things would be this fast for us
Thankful to the big guy up there
Because I know He made all of this possible

Verse 3:

We both know how hard it would be
We just have to be strong
Trust me and hold my hand
Together we can beat the odds

Refrain:

You're someone who's very special
And you know I love you
And I know you love me too
And I want to be with you all the time

Chorus:

So that I could hug you tight
And I could kiss your lips
And I would cherish every second
And I would make each moment special

Bridge:

With you I'm not afraid of anything
With you I'm willing to experience every thing
And even when I'm not with you
I will love you more than you'll ever do

LP#21: Dream of You

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Aug 31 '09 @ 12:04AM - 12:29AM

We're together having so much fun
I really like seeing your smile
Sitting beside each other
Looks like we're very comfortable with each other

It looked like it was real
But it was only a dream
So I tried to keep my eyes closed
And wanted to sleep all day long

Because if I'll open my eyes

You'll no longer be beside me
Ain't gonna see that beautiful smile
And it may take a while
Before we get the chance to be together
Should have slept forever
So that I'll always be with you
And I wished on a shooting star
For this dream to be real

Why is it so hard for me to say this
It is because I always hold back
Maybe for you that dream was nothing
But for me that dream was something

Because it looked like it was real
Even though it was only a dream
So I tried to keep my eyes closed
And wanted to sleep all day long

Because if I'll open my eyes

You'll no longer be beside me
Ain't gonna see that beautiful smile
And it may take a while
Before we get the chance to be together
Should have slept forever
So that I'll always be with you
And I wished on a shooting star
For this dream to be real

If tonight I'd dream of you
If I could then I would
Sleep for as long as I could
So I can see us together again

Don't want to open my eyes

Because I want to be stay beside you
So that I'll get to see that beautiful smile
And because it may take a while
Before we get the chance to be together
And I would sleep forever
So that I'll always be with you
And I'll wish on a shooting star
For this dream to be real

RTP#40: Update

I apologize for my readers (if there's any lol) for not being able to post anything lately. Yes I really missed doing this. One of the reasons is because I have someone to talk about the things that's been bothering me. Next reason would be because I've been doing quite a lot of things for my leisure as well it takes away my time for blogging. Nights have not gone any shorter for me. Still sleep like pass 12:00AM everyday.

This past week like I said to someone I felt like my awesomeness is once again being tested. I have told a lot of stories of having a hell week but usually it occurs during the 8th or 9th week of the term. I'm only in the 5th week and it felt like hell week. Even changed my schedule to not to go to some place that I really wanted to go to just to help out my group mates. And to make things worse I had one of the most painful headaches I ever had afterwards. But I think I was able to end that week on a high note because... Yes because I'm awesome oh wait I stand corrected I'm AWEMAZING! :)

And I'm definitely on overdrive everyday especially when it comes to thinking about stuffs and about her. :) Yes I always receive a comment that to just go with the flow every time I tell someone about what I do. But here's my thing with just going with the flow. If the flow is taking you somewhere that you like then sure why not stay with it. If its taking you somewhere that you don't like and still stayed with it then you may find yourself stucked in nowhere in the future. So once you noticed the flow isn't going the right way you can make it go left. Lol Just dig to get my point here.

Another thing I stopped writing my book. I will not continue writing about it anymore. Even though a friend would still want me to do it I still insisted. So for those who are interested to see it I'll be sending it through email. Just give me your email add.

LP#20: Slow Pace

Written By: Benj Medina III
Written on: August 26 '09 @ 6:31AM - 7:30AM

Moving very slowly and carefully
If the pace is still fast
I'm sorry this is the slowest I can go
And I don't want to stop

This flow went smoothly and one day changed it all
It is one of the special days in your life
I thought speeding up a little for that day
Just to make you feel very special

I have written my longest poem to date
In that poem exaggeration is clearly seen
Because it is too early for me to say those things
But soon I'll live up for every word I'll state

If not for that day things would have been different
I don't know exactly how but I'm sure it'll be slower
And the longest poem wouldn't probably exist now
Now I'm scared that history may repeat itself

I should be saying "Oh boy here we go again"
But No No No ain't gonna say that today or ever
I am not expecting for anything to happen
But if that's where the flow takes us don't be scared

Just relax and hold my hand
I'll take the fall and I'm gonna risk it all
I am not always going to make the right calls
But with you I'll risk it and we'll conquer it all

Eighteen sure is a huge number
But what's in it is not the best
I have written a couple of better ones including this
Safe to say that the best is still absent

I strive to make each poem a masterpiece
Inspiration is what making it easy to do
For one minute I thought of giving up
I remembered you and it made me better

From time to time I want to speed up
But I'd insist and stay with this slow constant speed
Like I said even with this slow pace at hand
Don't be scared and just give me your hand

LP#19: Open Up

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Aug 25 '09 @ 12:37AM - 1:18AM

It is pass 12 in the morning
It is you that I'm thinking
Wondering what you're doing
Maybe you're already sleeping

Trying to come up with words
To express how I feel for you
Hear me even if your dreaming
Because I want you to know

That I'll always be here for you
I really care so much about you
I can't stop thinking of you
I can't stop talking about you

You're making me smile out of the blue
Everywhere I look all I can see is you
Even with my eyes closed it's you I see
You're the greatest addition in this new life

5 AM 8 AM 3 PM 6 PM 12 AM
No matter what time it is
You're always on my mind
Thinking about you all the time

Hoping that you'll be part of everyday
So that I can know more of you
Get to know you deeper and deeper
And make you more comfortable with me

I do respect if you don't want to open up
But I really am concerned about you
And I want to always make you smile
Especially when you're feeling bad inside

I think things are going pretty well
And I hope it would get better and better
There's nothing more that I can ask for
Because there's nothing more to ask

I know I already said this
But let me say it again
You are better than the best
And perhaps better than the rest

LP#18: Risk it All

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: Aug 4 '09 @ 1:30AM

I am willing to take the risks
Taking chances on every move
I am risking it all for the thrill
Not afraid of losing it all in an instant

But that was before I met you

Now I want to play it safe
Instead of going for the win
I will choose to go for a tie
It's because I don't want to lose you

I want everything to be perfect
I am hesitating on every move
Thinking a lot before doing such things
So afraid to take the risk and lose it all

I know we're just getting started
But I can sense a bright future ahead

There's nothing else that I can say
But I am so afraid of making a move
Because if it is blocked
I don't know if I could rise up
From that rejection

But then I realized

I just got to face it
I need to step up
I will give it more than my best
I am going to take the risk
I will go all in

What's going to happen next is up to you

PP#7: 18 Stanzas

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: Aug 14 '09 from 1:20AM -2:10AM

//Jace.. Sorry 4 the delay well here it is
Hope you'll like it//

Today is your birthday
Not just any other birthdays
Today is your 18th birthday
I wont be able to give you one of the 18 roses
Or drink one of the18 shots after giving a message
But what I can do is write all 18 stanzas for you

I
This one really is meant for a special girl
I can't come up with another word
Even though there's thousands of it
Perfect is the only word I know to describe you

II
Exaggerated? Yes about 0.01%
Because no one can be 100% perfect
But hey you're close enough
To be considered as one anyways

III
The first time I saw your picture
Although it may sound silly
I thought you are a poser
Because you're so pretty

IV
And from the very moment
I was told that you're not
And followed by surprising traits of yours
It made me crave for you

V
I wanted to meet you so badly
I couldn't wait for the day to see you to meet you
I just settled in chatting with you
And it turned out you really are smart

VI
You almost made my nosebleed at some point
But just almost because I was able to hold it
Even though you kept me waiting for your replies
Each of it is totally worth the wait

VII
Everyday I want to chat with you
Of course that didn't happen
Because at some point I was busy too
But I really want it to be like that

VIII
So after couple of days of failing
I already succeeded on catching you online
Even with a huge hesitation
I still pulled the trigger

IX
I thought I missed my shot
I only had one bullet
Now I have nothing left
But it turned out that I made it

X
For a moment the world stopped
I can't believe that you gave it to me
Your cellphone number it is
I texted you the first thing the next morning

XI
At the start yes it was awkward
And I really do sound like an interviewer
I tried and failed to come up with a way
To make me not sound like it

XII
Trying to get to know everything about you
Is what I really intend to do
But it turned out that talking about things
Made me more comfortable with you

XIII
From the TV shows to the random questions
The boomage day you had
The awemazing day I had
What can I say it's just simply awesome

XIV
Day by day we get to know each other deeper
Our conversations are often full of laughter
But we also get to share about some downfalls
And not to mention the success as well

XV
Thank you for introducing me to Skins
Yes it did made a huge difference in a test
Due to mere coincidence the speaker is British
And I didn't have troubles in coping with the accent

XVI
I know I don't have all the right to
But still I told you that thing
Because I don't want you to be part of it
I hope you really would do what you said to me

XVII
Hope things would just get better and better
And this is the longest poem I've ever written
I'm not doing this to impress
But instead I'm doing this to express

XVIII
This is the last stanza
I still have a couple of things to say though
You are better than the best
And perhaps better than the rest

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACE!

RTP#39: Psych Chits

Yesterday July 29 '09 Dondie can't understand what his assignment is all about. I checked it out and the main point that I was able to get from the article is that people can be distinguished because of a particular thing that he/she does or possess. I would definitely agree on that and in my own words that would be like being a "geek" on something. It is like knowing the said subject A LOT better than anyone else. As I've said earlier that it could also be something that you do very well like playing sports, drawing, singing, dancing, writing poems or songs, playing musical instruments, etc. It would most probably be the first thing that would come out when you're being identified or to be identified by someone.

Take note that this thing does NOT only apply with the good things that you do or the positive traits that you possess. It also caters your negativities. So be careful because you don't want to be remembered as someone who always cheats in exams or the one who stinks as if you're only taking a bath once a week.

To simplify it it's like making a name for yourself or creating your image based on the things that you do that would make others recognize you for that.

PP#6: Everyday

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: Aug 2 '09 @ 1:30AM

Everyday

I want to see you

Your pretty face
Your dazzling eyes
Your beautiful smile

Everyday

I will make you

Feel how much I care for you
Feel special when you think your not
Feel my never ending love for you

Everyday

I want you to know

That I will never hurt you
That I will never make you cry
That I will only love you more and more

Everyday

I will give you

Whatever you need
Whatever you want
Whatever you like

Everyday

I can't stop

Thinking about you
Smiling because of you
Loving you more and more

And there's no way

That yesterday is better than today
And today is better than tomorrow
Because for each day
I always love you more and more

EP#49: First Week of SY '09-'10

I will be discussing the highlights of my first week in Mapua Makati while staying in Pasig. It really was "legen... wait for it.. dary!" There's not a single day in this week where I have not experienced an "adventure". Enough with the appetizer let's move on to the main course. :D

Sunday: I arrived in Pasig together with my Mom it was like 9:00PM when we arrived and as expected Chito (Dondie) is the one in our room. Yes Chito and I are roommates for as long as we're both staying here. Of course this one is going to be fun and we should learn how to discipline ourselves so that we can do both of our studying and still have fun at the same time.

Monday: The first day of the SY '09-'10 WELCOME FRESHMEN! And I should welcome my self not because I am a Frosh but because I'm just like them in a way that we're still a blank piece of paper in this Campus. Mom and I went to school together because she also wants to discover how to get to MIT-Makati and go home from there. We arrived in the Ayala FX terminal around 9:40AM and the FX left at 9:55AM. We arrived in Makati at 10:25AM and we began looking for ways to make it to my school. We walked to the right then straight then crossed the road then went back crossed to the other side then went straight again then crossed to the right went straight turned right crossed then straight then crossed again then after a staright walk here we are. LOL! ;p Of course that's not the exact directions point is it was a long walk. I was able to arrive in Mapua around 11:10AM. And my class will start on 12:00PM. Now I don't have any place to go to and the school is pretty crowded I just settled down on one place near my classroom and after sitting for a while guess who came and greeted me? No not Christine Reyes lol. It is my blockmate from COE A16 Jose. We talked while waiting for our respective classes and once the bell rang I found out that my room was relocated. I went to it's new location and it is so weird that even my professor find it weird as well because instead of a wide room that we usually have it is a long room. And what a surprise because Riza from BLD-Youth turned out to be my classmate here in this class. It is a English class btw. Then moving on to my next class which is Psychology our prof sounded very cool and I have quite a number of cute girl classmates in this class. And we were asked to introduce ourselves and answer the question asked to us by the card that we were given. My initial reaction when I recieved my question card was to smile. I mean I had a huge smile on my face as if I saw a pretty girl winked at me. The question is "If you were a POET what are your POEMS mostly about?". WHAT?!!! lol. Of course we're required to answer in english and even if we're not I would still answer in english. I answered like this with a huge smile on my face I introduced myself and followed it by reading the question then answered "Actually sir I am into writing poems and songs, I started writing when I was in 3rd year high school and my poems are mostly about what am I feeling but now I am into writing love songs and stuffs and in the future I hope to write about anything that I would want to write about.". Then my professor gave me a positive remark. :D After that class it's my lunch break I went to the canteen and meet up with Alah and his blockmates. Then my next and final class is Math22. And it turned out that my professor as they say is one of the "terror" professors in the Math department. She just let us finish the necessary information on our index card then dismissed us. And the adventure begins. I am so clueless on how to get back to Pasig from MIT-Makati. So what I did is rid the Washington Bel Air jeep and I noticed that I was going the wrong way so I went down and walked towards the area where I can find a bus that would go to Glorietta. Then here I am in Glo and I went to the MRT station and checked out the FX that was said to be near the area and I wasn't able to find it so I just rid the MRT to Shaw instead. There's one huge speculation that I did not forget to think about and that is the time which is the RUSH HOUR! Well as expected the MRT will stink and people will be like in a can of sardines. When I reached Shaw station I went to Megamall A and it's sort of far as well and upon reaching it I went outside and rid an FX to Pasig. Home at last!!

Tuesday: My class in this day starts at 9:00AM and because I am still trying things out I decided to leave at 6:30AM. I went to the same FX terminal where we went to yesterday but this time I rid the Buendia FX. And it dropped me off in front of Pacific Star and from there I walked to get to MIT-Makati. It was a long walk indeed. But I arrived in school at 7:35AM. WHAT!! I am almost an hour and half early for my class. Thank God that Alah also arrived early so I got someone to talk to. My class for today is CS140 lec and it turned out to be the same as COE112 which I was able to pass already. Surprisingly my professor started the lecture and gave us a seatwork. I am feeling so good regarding the result of it. Basically I am feeling good about how the whole subject I smell that I would be getting a high grade. After class Alah and I went out to have lunch in one of the restaurants around the area. Then we went home after it. As I was told by Alah that there's an FX that goes straight to Megamall so I went to that place and rid the FX. I was somehow tired and I was able to sleep in the FX. Then when I woke up I am in Megamall already. Then from there I rid the FX to Pasig. I was able to arrive at around 4:00PM I think. Then we (Dondie and I) went to Ingen to play NBA2k9 and we went back home before 11:00PM then we watched a couple of hilarious episodes of Big Bang Theory and that's about it.

Wednesday: No more orientations for this day all lectures are going to start. And at last I was able to find the most convinient way to go to school during MWFs. And that is riding the Ayala FX and then I would go down in front of RCBC then from there after crossing to the Buendia side I can just continue walking or ride a jeep straight to MIT-Makati. I thought I am going to be late for my first class because the FX left later than I expected but it turned out that I am 40 minutes early for my class. My first class turned out pretty awesome. We were grouped for our presentation next week the topic is porduct innovation. After our professor said the topic my mind began to process and what I was able to come up is a back pack. My idea is so brilliant and it is the one that we're going to use for next week's presentation. I always knew that whenever I disregard my shyness I become more productive. Then the next class is the Psychology class. I forgot to accomplish a couple of things like buy a book and photocopy a couple of things. But our prof gave us another chance. Then he discussed quite a number of topics to us and in the last part of our discussion he asked us to group ourselves and talk about an specific that we're going to discuss to the whole class. I don't have a book so I just borrowed from my classmate who has one and then after reading it I completely understood what it is about and I am ready to recite whenever needed. With that being said I became the saving grace of our group. When my group mate was asked to answer he wasn't able to say anything that's why I stood up. I think I was able to give a decent answer. Next is the lunch break and Alah and I ate in the canteen. Then next class would be my Math class. I am very confident once I entered this class. And my overconfidence is the one that killed me in the end. Of course the lesson is still easy but the seatwork is under time pressure. That changed everything because my professor wants our paper with a borderline and mine doesn't have any so I still need to draw the lines and it did cost me valuable time. In the end I wasn't able to finish my seatwork and ended up guessing for the answer. I felt so bad about it not because I got it wrong but because the lack of time is the one who killed me. Then after class I went home by using the FX-FX way. The traffic is quite heavy this time I was able to arrive in Pasig around 8:00PM already. But the night didn't get shorter because Chito and I was able to come home before 12:00AM already and slept at around 1:00AM already. I was able to finish my homework in my Math that is due on Friday. Talking about improvement in study habits.

Thursday: I only have one class for this day and it would start at 7:30AM. I scheduled myself to leave at 6:15AM but my Mom decided to give me a ride to school and we were able to arrive at 6:40AM. Knowing that there's still quite a huge time to kill I went to Mini Stop to buy a tissue because I forgot to bring a handkerchief and a lollipop. Then I went back and waited for my class to start. It was only an orientation and since it is a computer lab subject the computers are connected to the net. And guess what I did throughout the period? I played online games. It was so awesome but it would have been awemazing if Facebook isn't blocked. The class ended early and I went straight home from school. I took the Bus-FX way this time and it turned out that it is cheaper. I was able to arrive home at 11:00AM. I played PS2 with Dale because he was asking me to in the previous days but I couldn't give it him because of lack of time. Then Chito and I were set to leave and go to FEU to meet someone but we didn't push through it because it is sizzling hot outside. Because we don't want to put our get up to waste we decided to go to Megamall instead. First we were dropped off at Shangrila we walked around it and transferred to Megamall. We just walked around the mall again and played NBA2K9 in PS2. I won the game but I wasn't satisfied with my performance I can play way better than that. ;p We arrived home at around 7:00PM I think then we ate dinner and went to Ingen to surf the net because I really need to because I have a couple of homeworks to do. Then this is also the day where I was able to chat with Jace. Not only that she is stunningly beautiful outside but also inside. Wonderful person indeed. I really had a great time chatting with her she is a smart person she almost my nosebleed just almost. lol I went home with a huge smile on my face because I was able to chat with a wonderful person like her. I was able to accomplish everything before 12:30AM referring to my school works. And because I couldn't sleep I decided to watch some videos then it made sleepy and I waas able to sleep before 1:30AM.

Friday: The last day of school week and I am so ready to go to school because I have done my homeworks. I chose to go to the FX terminal that the FX driver told me to go to the other day. It filled up faster as he said. And I was able to arrive in school early as usual. Then I walked around to kill time and here comes the first class. It was sort boring and the same goes with the second class which almost made me sleep at some point. I just kept myself look like I'm still aware of what's going on. Then that will bring us to the lunch break where I had Paotsin. Then here comes the Math class it seems like the only real subject for this term. I was able to get 3/4 in my homework well that's not bad because I am the one who did it and I didn't just copied from someone else. And I still failed to answer the seatwork correctly but my only error is the sign which means I know what I am doing and that's fine with me. I am so happy because so far everything is going pretty well and is way better than I had before. And I went straight home from school. I took the FX-FX way. And I was not able to go down at Megamall but I said to myself it would be fine because finding the FX to Pasig in Robinsons would be easy but it turned out that it wasn't that easy for me. I was lost and I still tried to figure things out by myself. And I encountered this girl named Rica who approached me and talked about the organization WWF. No it's not the old WWE it is the organization which launched the Earth Hour project. And she said doubted that I am a student because I sounded very professional when I was talking to her. I am lmao inside. It was a short talk but she wasn't pretty so wth. lol And then I tried to go around one more time and I still was not able to find that FX terminal. It is getting late so I asked one of the security guards where is it and he directed me to it. And then there I was able to ride one FINALLY!! :D The night didn't get any shorter Chito and I spent 4 hours in Ingen without even noticing it. Yes Jace and I was able to have a short chat once again and it's awesome. We went back home nearly 2:00AM already and we were shocked because my Mom is there. We spent the next 30 minutes in the dining room talking with each other. And then at 2:40AM we both went to sleep. We did wake my Mom up but she didn't know that it is pass 2:00AM already thank God. ;p

Saturday: My "homecoming" after the very very long school week that I had. All of us knows that my Mom slept in Pasig yesterday with that being said I assumed that both of us would be going home to Cavite together. But it didn't crossed my mind that she went somewhere and would come home late. So I waited until during lunch I asked Tita Ditas where is my mom? And she answered that she went to LSS and left early in the morning. It really made me laugh because it's like waiting for no one. That perhaps is the funniest thing that ever happened to me on this day. Even my grandparents were laughing because of it. Immediately after lunch I left Pasig. I took an FX to Megamall then MRT to Taft then from there I rid an LRT to Quirino then I took the bus straight to Cavite City. Well I got home at 3:00PM and as expected there's nobody home but what I didn't expected is that one of them would be arriving at 10:00PM already. I was home alone for like 8 hours. And again I was able to chat with Jace on this day. And I think there's nothing so special happened after the short chat that I had with Jace.

It was an AWEMAAAZING week indeed from school and everyone and everything that comes in between. It was a very long week it is mainly because of my afternoon schedule that I have during MWFs. Well I am looking forward to the incoming week and I hope things wouldn't change and gets better and better.

EP#48: 2 Day Enrollment

The day didn't start the way I wanted to I wasn't able to get up in the right time. I am expecting to leave at 5:30AM so I did set my alarm at 4:00AM the same that Anne is waking up. So I also asked her to wake me up but she didn't and my alarm didn't wake me up as well. Thank God that I was able to open my eyes at around 5:20AM and my Mom is there and we rushed into Alah's place immediately.

We managed to make it in time without causing that much of a delay. Then Alah and I together with Kuya Aj and Mang Totoy we're able to make it in Mapua Makati just in time for Alah's interview. But it turned out that the one who'll be interviewing him is not yet around so we waited and waited and waited, basically that's what we did pretty much all day. But after getting interviewed they again asked us to wait for the approval of the dean. Then we ate out in Jollibee for lunch when the rain powered down. But there's one thing that we both forgot to realize and that is it might get strong again. So on the way back to Mapua we went through the rain because we're needed to be there in a couple of minutes. Half of my body is wet but it's alright. Then he got the approval of the Dean. Then the next step would be for both of us to meet the Registrar Ma'am Joy so that she could help us regarding the enrollment because we both just shifted. And because it is almost 12:00PM both of us we're asked to come back after the lunch break which is 1:00PM so once again we waited and she came back at 1:30PM. At the end of the day both of us were not able to finish the enrollment today because we are missing on some requirements.

The original plan was after enrollment we will go to Alah's place to have a drink and T-Tin would just pick me up there. But because of the mix up I decided to sleep in Alah's place. Problem is, I still don't have any clothes so we went home to my place to pick up my stuffs then went to his place afterwards. Funny thing is any place we go there's water especially in Cavite City even on the main road there's water caused by the heavy rain. We just had a little drink while playing Poker on FB then that's pretty much what happened that night.

Next day we went back to Mapua again to finish things off and we did but it took us half day to finish it. Before finalizing our enrollment we went out to have lunch at Dencio's with Joyce. As expected it's been pretty awkward for me towards Joyce because we haven't heard from each other for quite a while. Now it's official I am an IT student of Mapua. I can't wait for the classes to start but of course it won't take long because it would happen just two days from now.

After the enrollment we went to Joyce's place at Prov (the neighbor of Burgs) to eat snack because Cors prepared some Spaghetti for us. Then there we ate and met Steph, Tricia's thesis mate. We stayed there for almost an hour then we (Alah and I) went back to Makati, Glorietta to be specific to meet up with Kuya Aj. And on the way home we stopped by at McDo Macapagal to buy a Sprite Float and Twister Fries. Then we went straight home to their place. I decided to spend the night there because it's late already.

RTP#38: Chikadora

This is about our maid who just got transferred to Pasig because of her ridiculous acts. I called her Chikadora because of what she did and she somehow looks like Dora the explorer as well.

Last month when our telephone bill arrived she made a total of 700 pesos or more because she's calling someone else's cellphone using our land line phone. Then my Mom lend her a cellphone thinking that it would fix the situation. Of course landlines are usually in post paid so it is somehow more convenient to use. Going to the main thing the new land line bill arrived and at this point we're expecting that the bill will be back to it's normal state. But not when Chikadora's around she recorded our bill for IDD calls (not sure if that's what it is called) or simply the land line to cellphone calls for 2 years where we are averaging 200 pesos a month. So she tallied 4,800 pesos and that would give her a grand total of more or less 5,500 pesos for the past 2 months. So calls costs 100 pesos or more and some costs only 12 pesos but because she's always doing it, it piled up.

And another thing is she's calling when of course when we're not around and when we're all asleep. According to the records that I saw she's literally sneaking to make a call. Whether it's 1:00AM or even 4:00AM and in between that span she'll try to make it. And she often complains about having a headache, hmm I wonder why.

It didn't bother me that much until I heard of this that the one's she's been calling is not her family but another lover of hers. Which means Chikadora's cheating on her husband. That's way of the line now and that really pissed me off. Why am I pissed off? Because I hate cheaters I mean I HATE them! Not because I was cheated on by someone but because it is just not right, it is left lol I'm kidding. And what made me find it more stupid is that she's working here to support her family that she left in Davao and now the ones she's cheating on.

And the third party is working right in front of our house. He's one of the refrigerator fixers. What's bothering us is that the guy might take advantage of Chikadora's stupidity and one day he'll be able to get inside our house and the worst case would be robbing it. This thing could really happen.

And there she goes it's also in July 9 '09 when she left. Actually I've spotted the van while I'm in the bus on the way home. And I saw my mom and Chikadora inside. So I figured that as planned they would head to Pasig and let Chikadora work there until she has enough money to pay for her debt and to buy a ticket to Davao.

And there are times that my Mom and Anne received sweet text messages that is meant for Chikadora. And it turned out that aside from the third party here in Cavite she has a fourth party. Oh yeah you read it right Chikadora is a three timer. I did joke about this one time where I said her boys are like her souvenirs, what up? :D The fourth party is a friend of theirs in Davao just think about what could happen once her officially wedded husband find out about all this.

She's actually not a huge loss in terms of the household because she doesn't do it very well. That's why we're wondering why is our Mom still keeping her. And look what she brought a huge trouble. Yes a little help but more on trouble. Thanks to Chikadora's actions now the cleaning is another thing that we're always going to hear from our Mom now.

LP#17: The Last Time

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: July 21, 2009

Never thought I'd break this chain
That binds you and me
Brute force wasn't enough
I tried loosening it little by little
And it did the trick

Week by week it's getting weaker
And now it's like it never exists
Everyday I think less of you
And I can say that soon
I'll definitely be over you

And before that time comes
Let me say these for the last time

From the start I knew you're something else
You made me wait even without asking me too
You made little memories flashback everyday
From day to night you're always on my mind

I felt like you're everything that I've wished for
With you I wouldn't ask for more
For you I'm willing to risk it all
And there's no way that I'm going to hurt you

Never thought I'd wake up from this night
Where I can see you and me
Reality is within my reach
I tried to extend as much as I could
Too bad it wasn't enough

Day by day I'm slipping faster
And I fell straight to the ground
Now I think less of you
And I can say that soon
I'll definitely be over you

And before that time comes
Let me say these for the last time

From the start I knew you're something else
You made me wait even without asking me too
You made little memories flashback everyday
From day to night you're always on my mind

I felt like you're everything that I've wished for
With you I wouldn't ask for more
For you I'm willing to risk it all
And there's no way that I'm going to hurt you

This would be the last lines
And I wish you all the best
I know it could be forever
It turned out that is not meant to be

EP#48: Approved or Declined?

Written on: July 7 '09

Today is a big day for me because it's our finals for our Math class. And also we need to pass the Take-Home Quiz in our D-Math class. And as expected the finals is very hard because we are with the regular students. After the exam we went to the library to finish working on the take-home quiz to be submitted later on. Then at around 12:00PM we were able to submit the quiz to our professor. And then we went downstairs again (Me, Roi and Guil) and went to the ATM Machine because Guil is going to widthdraw. Beside the ATM Machine is the bulletin board where the shifting results will be posted. Still 6 steps away from the bulletin board I noticed that there's a new paper. Then I checked it out. It's the list that I've been waiting for like more than a month. The list that would change everything. As I called it before I am waiting for the life changing approval because it is what it is. If I'll be approved then I'll be moving out from the Intramuros Campus and transfer to the Makati Campus which I am begging for. And if I wont be approved then I don't know what to do after it. One thing's for sure I'll feel devastated. I even joked about that if I wont get approved I'll kneel down in front of the bulletin board then scream NOOOO!!! Am I keeping you hanging? Well the result is... APPROVED.

Congratulations to me. I am relived and it feels awemazing to see my name on that list. And from that very moment until now I am still elated by the fact that I was able to get that approval that I am wishing and hoping for. Now that I am officialy going to transfer to Mapua Makati next term do I have any plans? Of course I do here are some of it:

1. Most probably I will be staying in Pasig during school days. To reduce the fatigue in traveling and the time consumed as well. Of course it's more comfortable here in Cavite than in Pasig but I have to do what I got to do. And from what I've heard Chito and I will become room mates. Oh my this would be legen.. wait for it dary!

2. How about the girls? First of course is I am going to search in Mapua Makati and also Chito is willing to set me up with some girl/s from his school. And even though there's a lot of girls to choose from I'm still considering the one who could last for a long time. The one who I can introduce to my family. Basically I am still looking for a serious and mature relationship. The one who can keep up with the busy schedule that I have and would understand if I can't give her the quality time that she demands. But who knows what's going to happen.

3. How about studying? It's time to get serious this is what I really wanted now that I got it it's game time. No more jokes. Easy for me to say but living in a balanced lifestyle would not do the trick anymore but I should change it to a more academically inclined one. Social life is going to suffer? Maybe yes? May no? The ultimate goal is no failing grades for like till I graduate. A little inspiration would really help a lot. That's why I'm looking for a serious girlfriend.

4. The book would still be in progress. The last time I checked I already have 20 pages. But there are still a lot of things to write about. Maybe the manuscript might reach 80+ pages or maybe a hundred pages. My book's progress is going on pretty well despite having less time in writing due to the school works that I am prioritizing I can say that I'm on the right track.

5. Also I must say goodbye to badminton for now. I don't know if I'm going to have some physical activities while I'm in there. Or if I'm still going to have the time to do things like that.

6. My tentative class schedule would be Mondays to Fridays. From 7:30AM - 1:30PM or 3:00PM (MWF) for Tuesdays and Thursdays well I don't know yet. I am planning to go for as may units as possible. I still need to catch up. I know the delay may be cut off in half. But still I have some things to work on with.

7. Saving the best for last. I am planning to pretend that I am also a Freshman or a Frosh since I am often mistaken as one. Just to have some fun you know. ;p

No matter what happens I am thankful that I was able to get this approval and I wont waste this chance to pursue my goal which is the main reason why I shifted to another course. I think I have said enough. Well I am definitely looking forward to the next term but this term isn't over yet still have three final exams so I must study like... right now. Goodnight.

LP#16: I Just Cant Stop

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: July 4 '09 from 12:29AM-1:03AM

I am lying on my bed
Everyone else is sleeping
I found myself listening to the song you sang
It made me realize what am I going to miss

I said I want to forget about you
It is indeed easier said than done
Because there's always something
That reminds me of you

I know we didn't had anything going

But you're like the sunlight
That I am hiding from during the day
And the cold breeze
That I am covering from during the night

If there's one thing that I can't stop doing
That would be thinking of you

You give me a hard time sleeping
Thinking about you is never ending
I always try to let you know through my songs
But most probably you're not reading it

I said I'd stop writing songs for you
It is one of the funniest thing I'd ever said
Because there wouldn't be a week
That I won't come up with a song about you

I know we didn't had anything going

But you're like the sunlight
That I am hiding from during the day
And the cold breeze
That I am covering from during the night

If there's one thing that I can't stop doing
That would be thinking of you

I don't know when am I going to see you again
But I know that I am missing you so badly
And I want to be by your side
Because once again I want to see that smile

I know we didn't had anything going
But please be mine
I know we didn't had anything going
But please be mine

But you're like the sunlight
That I am hiding from during the day
And the cold breeze
That I am covering from during the night

If there's one thing that I can't stop doing
That would be thinking of you

EP#47: Welcome July '09

This would be a remarkable month indeed. A bunch of things is going to happen her which includes the 4th term finals and the much awaited shifting result will be revealed. And the first day of this month is also my return from the 10 day break that I had. As expected I would not have quite a good day today.

I saw this announcement that all students will be checked upon entering the school due to the A(H1N1). So I assumed that it would be a cost of delay. So instead of setting my departure time at 6:30AM I changed it to 6:00AM for today. Regularly before going to sleep I also set up my cell phone alarm and it turned out that I changed the time of the alarm to 6:00AM. Which is supposed to be the time that I am already leaving. But I was able to wake up 10 minutes before 6:00AM and I just took a shower then dressed up and I am all set. But it turned out that my Mom is also leaving early so she took me and Anne with her. That saved the day for me. But when I arrived in Mapua it is only 8:15AM and the check-up is no longer held at the front gate so it became optional.

Fast forwarding to my Data Struct class. Something bad really happened here. Remember yesterday when I said I am going to pass a take home quiz on Friday but it turned out it is to be submitted today. Damn it! Now I have to pass through a needle to convince my professor to take my late quiz. Let's all hope that he will accept it.

The bad luck isn't over yet. The next class is my Math subject. And most of us are in desperation state there. We need to come up with desperation moves to pass the subject. And we have an assignment a very very very long assignment that only a few students were able to accomplish. And what we did is we did not attend the class and photocopied the answer of our classmate then we will pass it on Friday. Now that's one desperation maneuver. We sacrificed one session to accomplish a complete assignment for it to be added to our final grade. Every point counts at this point for us.

During my vacant period after eating my lunch I went back to the school and checked out the list of approved shifters. What I saw first is Approved Shifters for 4th term SY 2008-2009 that is the current term. And what sinked in to my mind is that it is the result that I've been waiting for. As I checked out the list and looked for my name I am surprised and devastated that I was not able to see my name on the list. I felt like my world is crushed and I don't know what to do on that very moment. So what I thought is I'd go to my adviser and seek some advice on what to do. I'm already in front of her office but I did not enter but instead I went back to the bulletin and read it again. Then I saw the approval date is Mar 23, 2009 which means that it is NOT the one that I am waiting for it's only a false alarm for me. Thank God!

Then I went to the gym where I always hang out. And I bumped into Steph my classmate in HUM11 and Nikka my blockmate. Then we had a lot of fun talking to each other. As a matter of fact we wanted to stay and talk to one another and not attend our classes. But we are good students ;p that's why we still chose to enter our respective classes.

And I am expecting to have the oral proficiency in my last class. But what happened is we also had a quiz. And I was not able to prepare for it but still I was able to get a decent grade. Then here comes the oral proficiency and even though my professor is quite rushing us I must say that as usual I was able to do a awesome job answering.

That's how my school day ended.

And I was definitely was able to bounce back from that bad start and I have so much to do tomorrow and I must accomplish all of it. And at last I am going to play badminton tomorrow. I am so hungry to get a perfect winning record.

I need to rest now I still need to get up early and I have quite a long day ahead. Goodnight.

LOG OUT TIME: 1:20AM

RTP#37: K

As for the title I can't come up of anything that's why I called this post K. Of course it has something behind it. And I think if I am not going to tell you why is it like that way. There's no way that you would have guessed it right. So I'm going to cut off all the thrill and suspense now. Stop the drum roll. K because its the end of the break. If you still didn't get it then just dig deeper.

So here I am on the last day of the 10 day break that I had because of the A(H1N1) and I think I really needed this break. Now I am feeling so much better. Refreshed and ready for the final push towards the end of this term.

As of now it's only 8:01AM and I am already blogging. Actually from the moment I woke up I began composing something and that is the last song for this girl. No not probably the last song that I will ever write for her but for now. I don't know but I have to move on. I mean I should be looking for someone that wants what I want as well. And not keep on waiting and hoping for someone who isn't in the same page that I'm in. If fate would make things happen for us in the future then why not? So it would be safe to say that once again the search is on. And now I don't know if I would take the next one seriously or it would be like a warm up before the game itself. I mean I've been single for quite a long time now and if would not warm up then that would mean I would be prone to injuries. To protect myself I might even consider singing a SoNG once again.

And I am still in the beginning of a long day. I should program my take-home quiz. I don't know how long would it take me to finish it. Technically it's due is on Friday but I want to do it today so I would get an advantage at some point. So that would be the thing that would keep me busy later on.

And regarding my book. It's going on pretty well. I was able to come up with the outline and now even though I'm only doing the regular writing that I am doing. I can say that now I am in the right track. And the outline really helped me a lot. Focusing on one topic at a time it makes my brainstorming ability get involved even more than it got before. And now that's actually a good thing because I am developing something that is essential in my field and I am enjoying while I'm doing it.

And just yesterday finally I was able to finish watching the whole HIMYM season 4. It's awesome as usual. It really is the origin of my awesomeness. I downloaded episodes 14-24 via torrent. Even though it took a long time but it's definitely worth it. I think I would be doing it for every episode of season 5. But I don't know I think I would let it finish first. What the hell I should stop Tedding up. What's Tedding up? Watch the show then there you'll know. Trust me it's the awesomest show ever. It's so awesome that I won't care if I will be able to watch the same episode for 5 times. Plus I learn a lot from that show.

So what else am I going to talk about. Oh crap this thing about 12.1 that I want to stop just made me think about her even more. I wonder if she's awake by now. No! No! I should divert my attention to something else. I should stop thinking about her. Here we go again she's the one who's in my mind now. And I should just stop this now. Better do something to keep me busy and not think about her for a while.

LP#15: Stranded

Written by: Benj Medina III
On: June 30 '09 @ 6:42AM


Six months is quite a long time
To be in this situation that I am in
I've waited for your response
And I hoped that you would give it a chance

But it turned out I chose the road
Where I can only see the road
And after months of pursuing that road
I found myself stucked in the middle of nowhere

I am confused on what to do
Maybe I should stay where am I
And try to live and make it through
Until the rescue team comes and save me

I found myself rescued one day
And now I'm back to the real world
Where all opportunities keep coming
Where all the mystery and thrill reigns

I am so afraid that I would regret
Calling for the rescue team to save me
And then that day came
I said to them I think it's about time

About time for me to go back
I should let go because
I don't want to stay stranded
And now I will start all over again

I know I did not do my best
To get your attention and make things happen
I got stucked in the middle of nowhere
And I feel like I am heading nowhere

I didn't make a song for you
I composed an album for you
And it's a shame that this is the last entry
And I think I just need to go back to reality

You know it and I know it
That we could work this out if given a chance
Yes you're the kind of girl that I am looking for
But it turned out you really don't want to go further

So I would end the journey
And everything would be history
I will never forget about you
I must say that you really are something else

EP#46: A Firstday

This about what happened last Thursday, June 18 '09 where I went with T-Tin and Kuya Marvin on checking out cars in Dasmarinas, Cavite and after that go to MOA to buy my new badminton racket. But it turned out that we are also going to the Mafbex that is held in the World Trade Center in Manila.

First I will talk about the car inquiring that we did. The first company where we went is Toyota. For the three of us this will be the first time that we will do this kind of thing and that would mean we don't have "standards" when it comes to this thing. We were looking for someone that Kuya Jerome suggested but it turned out that she is not around so we were accommodated by another person. It took us more than 30 minutes in that place. So we thought that it will always be like that. The next car company where we went is Honda. The place is much bigger than Toyota's and in terms of the accommodation and the speed and quality of service they are way better. We only stayed there like 20 minutes would be the maximum. And then next is Ford we don't have high hopes in terms of car value on this one and surprisingly even the sales representative who we talked to isn't quite impressive. Yes, we just wasted our time there because we left the place very unsatisfied in terms of the details that we want to get. The last company is Hyundai but this one is in Manila. And I must say that this is almost like in the level of the Honda inquiry that we had which means that we were accommodated very well and we are completely satisfied as the customers.

The next thing that I will talk about is the first Mafbex experience that I had. And it was a blast. I am definitely going back to this conventions especially when I have a girlfriend this is one place that surely we're both going to have fun. The 50 Pesos entrance fee is so worth it. From the free tastes alone you'll definitely be satisfied plus the liquors have their free tasting as well, now that would be definitely be like me, awesome. After going through the whole place once I am really feeling really tired. I am looking for some place to sit and rest for a while. We spent like 2 hours of walking and walking and eating and drinking and walking but still it was a lot of fun.

The last thing is the MOA stop over. We didn't spent a long time here because we only need to check out like three different places to choose the racket that I will buy. Yes I was able to buy one and after trying it out yesterday I think that it is a good one. Well I'm still adjusting to it it may take a number of games because I'm not yet that good.

So this only happened in one day and I always labeled myself as the person who is always bad in first times. But in this day not so much. It was a very tiring day no doubt but what's important is that all of us had a lot of fun.

RTP#36: 10-Day Suspension

Yesterday was the Father's Day and we had lunch at Lolo Dad's place to have a little celebration. I had a great time. And upon arriving back home I went online just to check my FB account and I saw the last thing that I want to see and that would be the announcement of the class suspension due to the A(H1N1) virus.

I should be celebrating after hearing this but I felt really really bad about it. We only have 2 weeks left to this term conclusion. But what can I do this thing is unavoidable. The paranoia that this virus brings to the world really is in a different level. That a rule has been made that once a student or any employee in a school has the virus the class would be suspended for 10 days.

Well looking on the bright side now I will have the time not only to rest because I'm really feeling sick during the past couple of days but also I will have time to blog and to come up with the outline for my book. Yeah I forgot to make an outline for my book how stupid (with the Simon Cowell accent) is that.

I want this break to be productive. Simple as that.

RTP#35: Decode

No it's not a review about the song Decode by Paramore but I what I meant here is decoding the labels that I will going to use in this post. Actually I am supposed to blog about the remarkable days that I had this week. But I find myself composing a post about this thing that happened just a while ago.

I was playing Scrabble in FB earlier and turtle still is not yet home so 415 is still awake. While 415 is sitting on the couch near me she asked me what am I doing? And I replied that I am playing scrabble and I am very close on ending the game.

After the game I asked her about turtle and she said she don't care if she's going to go home because she haven't answered her calls. But what she wanted to talk to me about is the problem that I had which means in the past and I bet 90% of people in the world had a problem with this thing especially when it's a guy.

I was clearly not bothered by that problem at all. But the main point of hearing the doubts and being judged feels sort of frustrating for me. I am proud for myself that I was able to conquer that problem and still continuing to resist it every time it comes back. Because this problem will be around. And at some point when I was asked why can't I totally let go of it? What I really want to answer is this "I am a human". I can't answer like that even though I have some basis on that. Because it's 415 who am I talking to.

It was not a long talk actually but I just don't want being judged like that especially when I am really doing my part in resisting and pulverizing the opposition.

And lastly I want to apologize for giving you a hard time reading this one. Well it wasn't that hard actually consider this a game or whatsoever just to make it more interesting.