LP#26: If You're Here

By: Benj Medina III
June 8, 2010: 10:47PM – 11:28PM

I’m lying on my bed
Thinking about you again
As if doing it the whole day isn’t enough
How I wish you’re here beside me tonight

If you’re here I won’t sleep
I’ll just stare at you and hear you breath
Steal a kiss from time to time
And I swear I’ll be up till the sun rise up

Let me be the first person you’ll see
The first person you’ll hear
The first person you’ll feel
After you wake up from a long night sleep

As if the whole night isn’t enough
How I wish I could stop the time
So we won’t need to get up
And just lie here all day long

You don’t have to speak
You can just continue to sleep
As I hug you tight
I swear I won’t let go from day to night

Every night this is what I pray for
Every shooting star this is what I wish for
Countless wishes and prayers over time
One of these could make you mine

I continue to believe that this can happen
Not because of my wishes and prayers
But because we can make this happen
For we are the answer to these wishes and prayers

SP#1: Trust Me Girl

First song I have ever written and got to sing as well. I know I don't sound good but wth I just gave it a shot. Let me know what you think aryt? =)
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Trust Me Girl

Written by: Benj Medina III
Written on: Mar 21, 2010: 11:48PM

Never believed there is
Someone that is better
She was the best
And she seemed almost perfect

All of it changed
When I got to look at your page
Can’t believe you’re prettier than the best
You made me think about choosing you over her

I want to know more of you
Your beauty is too good to be true
That pretty face is
The one I want to see every day
I think it’s worth a try
Haven’t felt like this in a while
Can you trust me girl?
Just hold my hand
And I’ll never let you go

RTP#49: Political View

Politics is the last thing I would get involved to it’s not that I don’t care about my country or I don’t want to help people or I don’t want to make a change for my country. In fact to make a remarkable positive change is one of my missions in my life but for me there are other ways to do it, not just politics. For me politics sucks because it destroys the peace in a person’s life in exchange for power alone. Similarly, when a person gets into showbiz where in you get fans, haters and people eye every move you make. The common ground here is getting famous wherein it could be a blessing and a curse.

Election’s coming, am I voting? NO! I’m not even registered because I didn’t really want to.

Why?

1.) I don’t think my vote would matter anyway, it’s not like my vote is 1:1,000,000 and not the real 1:1. That’s my answer to the people who says “sayang yang boto mo”, I mean the only time I’d feel a little guilt is that if the person I’m going to vote lost because of a single vote or needs my vote to force a tiebreaker.

2.) If I’m still going to vote for the person who I’m sure is going to win with a landslide then I would just waste my time doing it. That would be an answer to those who says “para maexercise mo yung right mo to vote”. Again in this particular scenario my vote isn’t a factor.

3.) A similar scenario as #2, let’s say I voted and the one I chose lost but I believe if that candidate won he/she could really run things well and make this country a better place to live. Now is the person who won against the one I voted really is going to do better? The answer is maybe, we’ll see or the least is hope so.

4.) Take a look at our previous presidents one of them got impeached and the current one’s almost got but lucky for her the people chose to let her finish her term instead. My point is that voters vote for someone and then years later they want to replace them with a new one already because the current leader doesn’t run things well. Is it the voters or the candidates?

For me a better way to determine a leader is clearly not through voting but more of proving. There are also candidates and these candidates will have to go to a series of tests. Not only written exams but also practical exams wherein they would be given real situations and then they would have to find an answer then execute it [basically there would have to be an actual result] then they would be graded for it as well.

Then whoever gets the highest grade of all becomes the president then the second highest scorer becomes the vice president and so on. Assuming that there’d be a law that there’d be 12 candidates wherein as mentioned there’ll be a president and the vice president and then 10 senators. Who chooses the candidates? Who would give grades to the candidates? The current president is the answer for both questions for he/she knows what it takes to get there. What about the lower positions it will be appointed by the higher ones [a senator picks a congressman, a congressman picks a governor and so on]. The appointed officials can be expelled anytime especially when they break laws or whatsoever. Biases can be present but I think this system could be better than campaigning for the voters’ vote. Where a lot of promises would be made and a lot would be broken. And sometimes it could be decided simply by money and popularity.

Another thing, these candidates only state the things that they would do if they would win. Ever wondered what if they don’t? That’s the best question that you can ask them. What are you going to do if you’re not going to win? Think of it it’s not only that if you’re in the position where you can make a difference. For me even though you’re not elected you can still do things to make this country better. I think the best candidate is the one who has plans and is willing to implement it even though he lost.

RTP#48: Once is Enough

Mar. 25, 2010: 1:33AM

“The good thing when you experience failures is that you have experienced it; learn from your mistakes and thou shall be better the next day.” – BM3RD

In my life I have experienced quite a number of failures from school, relationships and life in general. But having this thought in mind I don’t let these failures to bring me down but I take a minute to check out what went wrong and I would learn from it and turn the tables around to avoid it the next time the situation would happen. I mean whenever I fail a subject I always have a reason and I see to it that it wouldn’t be dejavu when the next time I’ll be taking the subject. Say I failed again for the second time but I’m sure that it did not happen because of the same reason. Well I experienced that I failed one math class twice, I failed during the first time around because it was so hard and I wasn’t able to understand anything but during the second time I took it I think my professor only guessed our scores for there are classmates of mine who got lower scores than me but still passed and I failed. So with that at hand I turned this frustration to a motivation and the following term I was exempted for the finals (that’s how high my quizzes are). Did you get my point already?

Here’s another example to let you see at a better angle. You fell down because manhole and the next day would you let it happen again? Falling down because of an unexpected manhole once is tolerable but twice? I don’t think so.

Point here is if you’re experiencing such failure because of the same reason over and over and over and over (raised to the infinity) and over again then something is wrong with you. If you can’t see what’s wrong with you then ask your peers for it I bet they have already noticed it and if they haven’t then tell me your story then I’ll make you realize about it =).

Stop and think about things that are going on and let go of the things that you have to let go so that you can have a better life. Because sometimes we only need someone to enlighten us on what’s real to stop living in a dream.

EP#52: Vacation Plans

Mar. 24, 2010: 6:48PM

School’s over! What’s next? At this point I’m still wondering what is and even though I had come up with plans to do for this long vacation, I’m not really sure if I can pursue it. I don’t want for this vacation to be all rest and I want to learn a thing or two that’s why I planned of (1): learning how to drive & (2): learning how to play the guitar. Why I’m not sure if I can do those two things this summer vacation?

For the first one it’s because I don’t have any savings for this quarter for the very simple reason that is I wasn’t given my allowance consistently. I mean I am supposed to have 1,500 per week so that would mean if there’s 11 weeks for school I should get a total of 16,500. But because I’m staying here in Pasig and was only able to come back to Cavite for only 3 times over the quarter; I was not able to get my allowance regularly. What happened is my savings became my allowance for the following week. Why don’t I ask for my whole allowance? I’m not just the type of person who does such thing the one who would ask for something if I don’t really need it. Well yeah if you’ll take a look at it I have the right to demand for a complete allowance but for if I still have some money left with me then I would still ignore asking for it. Therefore the reason is that I don’t have the money to get myself enrolled in a driving school.

Moving on to the next one, well it’s just a minor thing for me but the reason would be is that I don’t have a guitar, an acoustic one to be specific because my sis (who’s going to teach me) has an electric one but she said we’d be splitting for an acoustic one which is fair enough. I can see this being resolved sooner or later.

Well I can still enjoy my vacation even without these so I’ll just see how things would go for me. Later! :)

RTP#47: Unhook the Hook

Mar. 23, 2010: 11:42

What made me realize about this was an episode from my favorite show HIMYM. Season 5 episode 16 wasn’t that funny for me but the story is what struck me. It is all about getting hooked by someone or you hooking someone. Hook here means getting someone so in to you that they would do everything for you and it happens without you even noticing it.

But…

I was able to notice that I am biting in to someone’s hook but she has the perfect bait for me to bite on. She got me thinking about her all day long, listening to her songs for an hour or so and staring at her pictures every night. Well I’m not saying I am regretting getting hooked by her I’m not even sure if she knows she did. Actually, I always loved it from the little talks we had daily shared laughs, failures and inspiring thoughts to each other. Even though she seemed like the perfect girl for me, I have to pass on making my move on her [for now? (?_?)]. Maybe it’s because I was not able to get her hooked. But I think she’s happy on what’s going on with her life now; I’m happy for her as well and I’m still going to be here for her.

So…

I would let go off this hook and search not for another hook but someone who I can hook while she got me hooked as well. Actually, I was able to find one already and even though it’s hard to let go of the last one, I would still do it for her. [As always] I really think if she’d give this a chance it could work for both of us.

And…

Because of this realization and a little action I’m now off the hook and you know what I feel really good about it. It’s not that I don’t want her in fact I really do but after testing the waters again I must say there’s too much this world can offer and if we really only if we REALLY can’t get what we REALLY want then don’t hesitate to go for another one. Maybe it’s just not meant to be and not yet meant to be but simply not meant to be.

And…

Another thing that I realized is that there’s a lot of interesting things out there that I failed to see when I was hooked and now as if I’m cramming for a project that I am blogging about these things that I missed to take note of.

EP#51: Hot Coffee Suits the Hot Topic

Mar 23, 2010: 10:20AM

Yesterday, Alah and I had a coffee in Starbucks and talked about things. It was a pretty serious conversation wherein I was able to talk to him about the only problem that I am in now and he was able to give his pov on it. There’s some points that I really agreed on and there’s some that I disagreed for we view things quite differently.

What I realized is that I am the only one who can start fixing this problem of mine even though it’s a group who is involved here. My plan is to talk to them one at a time and let them realize about what’s happening not just today but the whole situation as is. Through this approach I hope that they’d take it seriously for this could open their minds and ignite them to become the better man at their own rights. And also maybe after I had this kind of talk with them they would respect me more in the sense that I’m not all jokes that they usually see but I’m also serious when it comes to life and I care about what’s going on around me.

Though we all know how much a coffee from Starbucks costs I think it’s all worth it and even though I have to disagree on some things the entire conversation is meaningful. And I said to Alah the good thing that I realized from on being in this kind of situation is that I’m on the right track not only in school but in life in general. And also I said to him that maybe this is the reason why God wouldn’t allow me to have girlfriend yet. Maybe He wants me to fix these things first before getting involved in another commitment. That’s cool, no need to rush things for I know after going through this I would definitely be a better man and I would be in a better shape when I’m going to deal with my next relationship. Where I can influence her more to become a better person and make her understand things that she failed to understand before.

Funny because when I get together with my aunts the first thing that they always ask me is that if I do have a girlfriend already. And I always laugh at it then answer it with none. But deep inside I’m thinking wait for it I’m sure everyone’s going to love her. Fyi I haven’t introduced any of my exes to my family yet so the next might be the first and I’m sure I’m going to love her like she’s the last girl on earth.

Later. =)

RTP#46: Realationship

MAR 21, 2010: 12:47AM

I want to talk about my plan for my next relationship. I never had a serious relationship or “realationship” as I’ll call it and that’s what I want to have the next time around. No more flings, I had enough and never got anything from it but do I regret it? No, because I would not be enlightened and be the person that I am now without experiencing those failures. And fyi there are two things that I never did on those relationships and they are:

1.) Courted the girl: I don’t know maybe they’re just easy or I really am good in making a girl fall in love even without doing some act only through my words. But I bet it’s the first one.
2.) Played with the girl: even though all of them were short lived never and I mean NEVER played with her and I would never ever play with a girl. To manipulate her and make her do the things I want her just to give me what I want. It’s not going to happen EVER!

I want to have a serious realationship with a girl that is worth sharing a realationship with. Yes, I am very choosy when it comes to girls and I would be even more because I want a girl that I can proudly introduce to my family. I want a girl that wouldn’t get me looking at other girls for I’m so happy to be with her to the point that I would not give a damn to look at other girls without her asking me for it. A girl that wouldn’t make me wish that I’m with another girl. And that girl should not give a second to doubt about me not taking her seriously because I am sure and there’s no way I would not take her seriously.

I know I’m not that good looking but I also know that I would always be there for her, listen to whatever she says, understand her all the time and love her more than she’ll ever do and grow with her and become better persons because of each other.

All that I’m asking for is to trust me and give me a chance. I would be treating that girl with respect and would make her feel special in my own little ways and would look at her not as a girl that I’d be with for the moment but as a girl that I’d be with forever.

RTP#45: The Last Hour I'm 18

Late post: created Feb. 19, 2010

Tonight is the night before my birthday. In an hour I'm going to be a year older. For me age is only a number, it's how we act which determines our real age. Just today I was told by my classmate that he really thought that I was a freshman until today when he saw my school ID. It often happens that I’m being judged as someone lower my age when it comes to physical aspect. But for me it’s the total opposite when it comes into what’s inside me. How I view things, handle situations and want to live life is far beyond my age.

Also tonight one of the most unexpected things happened and that is Jace texted me first while I’m still trying to figure out what would I talk to her about. She sent a very awesome realization which is this:

“Everyday something or someone disappoints us. Lives the way we don’t agree with, laughs at things we hate and loves the ones we fool ourselves to be indifferent to. But we also forget that every day, something makes us wee bit happy, and someone blesses us with their love. Why get sick of the world when you can change it?”

Amen to that statement and like I said to her, everyone should view things this way. Take a look at the last sentence, that’s basically one of the reasons for my existence here on earth, which is to make a difference. And as I always say: “Sometimes it’s not about making huge steps but it’s about making quick steps [and vice versa].”

I attempted to write a book about women and it was a failure but not really a total failure but it’s just that from the simple idea it got really complex to the point that I’m getting really stressed due to it. Though my thoughts are factual and the content sure is spectacular, but it lacks support. So before I’d start writing again I’m going to research on it first [that includes experiencing the necessary things to prove a point].

So Benj what’s this book about? Glad you asked. As I’ve said it’s about women and it’s all about women. It’s like a manual for the guys to know about everything about women before being involved in a serious relationship. From the types of women out there [major types, stereo types, sub types], to the common attitudes of women, how to treat them, tips on how to make a move on them and I advise on the different problems people encounter before, and during the relationship. I would share things as long as there’s something that I could think of. [If you’re a girl reading this post then you must be cursing me or something but please read the next paragraph first]

And why did I write this book? I’m getting tired of hearing stories and reading Facebook statuses that contains her boyfriend cheated on her and chose the other girl over after all they’ve been through. My point here is I want to erase the guys cheating on girls. One way to do it is to be sure about which one he’d be dating, knowing her thoroughly, treating her like she’s the one he’s going to marry and spend the rest of his life with. Just imagine a world wherein no one is cheating [in terms of relationships], divorces and annulments would be reduced big time and there would always be a considerable reason for each break up. Basically, I want to protect you [girls] from getting your hearts broken from time and time again.

[I would highly appreciate on hearing your comments regarding this one]

For me that’s one way wherein I could make this world a better place. Of course, there’s a ton of ways to do it and we should just start looking for it and acting on it.

RTP#44: Plans

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I have this passage from the Bible posted on the wall of my bedroom and now I’ll be basing what I want to talk about on this. Well if you’re going to base being religious by attending the mass every week and by praying before and after meals or praying before going to sleep, then I’m not really religious. But I do believe in Him and I’ll always will no matter what happens.

Let me emphasize one word on the first part of the passage which is PLANS. In life we always got to have a choice because it’s not always that we can do two things at the same time. Take this simple example of where are you going to have lunch? If you’re in school you may think of the school canteen, the fast food chains surrounding your school and the eateries as well, here you may spend time thinking about where to eat but in the end you’ll only be choosing one among these places. Let’s say you chose to eat in the school canteen but we all know that things wouldn’t be the same if you chose to eat in the Mc Donald’s near your school? The food you ordered and the people you are with may be the same but the ones around you aren’t, are just simple differences. Did you get my point?

If yes, then good if not let me explain things a bit further. No matter what you choose God already has something in store for you. Though sometimes we experience not so good things because of bad decision making, of course none of us is perfect but keep in mind that everything happens for a reason and not to lose faith in Him. No matter what happens, keep believing in Him and then good things will happen sooner or later. Here’s the summary of what I said:

“It is written that God has PLANS for us but in life we’re the ones who choose which plan He would run for us. Though sometimes we commit mistakes in choosing then bad things might happen. Don’t question Him. Keep believing in Him and things would be better for sure.” – Benj Medina III

RTP#43: The Better Man

The comeback theme for my blog is "The Better Man" and here's why.

The better man would refer to as the wiser man.

- He knows how to live life the better way and handle himself with confidence that he wouldn’t be put down by just any obstacle and is ready to stand up a second after falling down.
- He knows when to stop and think if he’s heading the right path or he should turn around and pursue another path for the current path isn’t taking him anywhere that is good.
- He knows that not all things that he should do must always be good but what he knows is his limitations and not go beyond it if he can’t handle it.
- He lives in a balanced life where he has time for everything and he knows what to prioritize over the other.
- He aspires to be better every day without knowing the best there is he’ll continue to develop until someday he’ll realize he’s already the best there is.
- He would not stop growing for he knows that there’ll always be something new to learn out there.
- He respects not only the people in authority but all the people around him.
- He has the ability to know what the person is feeling without even asking.

I just had this thought because I don’t really know where I’m heading now aside from finishing my studies ASAP. It’s not that I don’t know what I want but recently the things that I plan to do doesn’t really work the way I planned it to. And what sucks now is that it’s been all about school though I’m heading in the right direction school for me was sort of boring because there’s less thrill in my life today. Feels like tomorrow is just another school day and nothing special would occur. And also I’ve been scared to take risks and tend to play things safe most of the time, more on this later.

My main thing here is I not to try to be the better man but to be the better man and for me we all should. As stated it’s not about living a straightedge lifestyle but knowing your bounds and not going beyond it. To live a balanced life and to be the better man that’s my thing right now. Come and join me for sure this is going to be LEGEN… waaait foooor iiiiiiit… DARY! LEGENDARY!